Ollie

I think I've lost my sense of humor. It's 14 million degrees, humidity is 200% and I am moving through the house on a six inch path. The boxes are now above my head and every one of them (except for the 25 cartons of books) says fragile. I've run out of boxes and out of steam.

I didn't eat lunch. I am now making potato salad and will chop up some tomatoes and basil for bruschetta and make some barbequed chicken, maybe a salad, corn on the cob. I'd make dessert but I just don't have it in me. And this is boring as hell. It may be time to move away from reality and into the fantasy life that has been propelling me forward.

This is how I envision my future. I have a library in my home. I love libraries. If I were really wealthy, or a little wealthy I would have built-in shelving everywhere in my house. Some for china, but many for books. So I'm going to have a library. I will put my small tv in there (I know, this doesn't sound like dream life but reality--this just means my fantasy is possible) and I have ordered a very cozy chaise with a pink slip cover. The room is painted a sage green. I didn't pick the color but I don't hate the color. I will find a carpet that will pull the two together. I have a small green table beside the chaise. Here I will sit in the evening after coming home from work, me, my books, my new puppy Ollie, and read poetry. Perhaps I will begin to write poetry again, there in my new life, which would be the best thing ever.

When Ollie needs to go out, we will run across the street, down the wooden walkway, through the beach grass to the beach and be beach bums together for a bit of time. (The winter version of the scene isn't so idyllic). In the summer, dinner can be on the back screened in porch where I might be able to have a heavenly hammock as well as dining area. There are so many possibilities for a rich and happy life. Ollie is going to be very happy regardless of sun, or wind, or rain, or snow. He's just going to love our life. So will I.

There is more to my dream. I will finally have a very large dining room. I will make it perfectly Scandinavian. I have the rug picked out. The table is simple though new. The dining chairs are all different and antique. There will be dinner parties and pot-lucks, and Ollie will be properly trained in the world of meeting and greeting and entertaining new canines and humans. of course, but that goes without saying for Bedlingtons.

I have a lot to look forward too.